I'm a big fan of television, movies and music. AND HANDSOME GUYS DUH I love discovering new tv shows, new fandoms, new artists. NEW FAVORITES TO UH STALK? LUST OVER?? I'm trying to start reading and writing again.
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'm okay"
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'll try harder" Don't be afraid to dream a little bigger darlin'
I SALSA UR FACE
✌ robert downey jr. · ewan mcgregor · jude law · johnny depp · colin farrell · jim carrey · tom hanks · wentworth miller · kevin spacey · george clooney · jeff bridges · jeremy renner · geoffrey rush · simon pegg · nick frost · colin firth · brad pitt · nicolas cage · leonardo dicaprio · sean penn · paul rudd · jason segel · clint eastwood · paul newman · marlon brando · matt damon · mark wahlberg · aaron paul · tim roth · etc
Secondly, don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want.
HE ATE A BANANA
✌ quentin tarantino · tim burton · martin scorsese · stanley kubrick · coen brothers · danny boyle · steven spielberg · edgar wright · robert rodriguez · roman polanski · sidney lumet · david fincher · christopher nolan · alfred hitchcock · etc
Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things that I shouldn't know
When there's a new moon on the rise
I had everything, opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
TALK DIRTY TO ME
✌ SONS OF ANARCHY · parks and rec · happy endings · friends · the good wife · supernatural · prison break · true blood · band of brothers · psych · lie to me · pushing daisies · harper's island · how i met your mother · torchwood · sons of anarchy · breaking bad · dexter · the it crowd · the office · etc
Follow my blog with Bloglovin And I really miss what really did exist
When I held your throat so tight
And I miss the bus as it swerved from us
Almost came crashing to its side
When I feel depressed like I do now, I can be even more horrible a person than I usually already am. For example, I could care less if our pets (the goldfishes, the hamsters, or the guinea pig) dies.
I feel so low and empty inside and I find myself wishing I could kill myself.
Then inside I tell myself to be careful what I wish for.
And I answer myself with, so what? If I do end up in a fatal traffic accident later, the only regret, the only reason I would wish it hadn't happened would be the costs and burden my family would have to bear. I don't think I have medical insurance. All the hospital and medical bills would crush them.
On the other hand, for me, at least it'd be somewhat of a change. I mean, a forced oh I have to deal with this now change---- although come to think of it, I'm not sure I could accept it.
My life is so dull, uninteresting and stupid, just like my personality and my lifeless motivation. I have no spirit, just an empty shell mimicking the forms of life.
I was put on earth to cause problems for my family.
Anyway, I cannot live with my menses. It is unbearable and I want to kick it out so bad but I don't know any doctor that would do an operation for me nor do I have the funds to pay him.
But I need it out of my life, because whenever for once when my luck isn't shit awful and I am actually somewhat more or less happily taking small baby steps in progressing with my life, BOOM! I get my period and for an entire week I am crippled with shame and disgust and I stuff myself silly with all kinds of crap calories I can find in the house.
I stay at home and I don't go out and all the previous progress I made in the past 1-2 weeks would be completely eradicated.
I am so unhappy.
I can't tell anyone in words how unhappy I am.
Although I am always bursting with the need to express that I am miserable to everyone around me.
In other words, when I feel like shit, I have to let everyone else know and possibly make them feel like shit too. That's how self centered I am.
