I'm a big fan of television, movies and music. AND HANDSOME GUYS DUH I love discovering new tv shows, new fandoms, new artists. NEW FAVORITES TO UH STALK? LUST OVER?? I'm trying to start reading and writing again.
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'm okay"
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'll try harder" Don't be afraid to dream a little bigger darlin'
I SALSA UR FACE
✌ robert downey jr. · ewan mcgregor · jude law · johnny depp · colin farrell · jim carrey · tom hanks · wentworth miller · kevin spacey · george clooney · jeff bridges · jeremy renner · geoffrey rush · simon pegg · nick frost · colin firth · brad pitt · nicolas cage · leonardo dicaprio · sean penn · paul rudd · jason segel · clint eastwood · paul newman · marlon brando · matt damon · mark wahlberg · aaron paul · tim roth · etc
Secondly, don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want.
HE ATE A BANANA
✌ quentin tarantino · tim burton · martin scorsese · stanley kubrick · coen brothers · danny boyle · steven spielberg · edgar wright · robert rodriguez · roman polanski · sidney lumet · david fincher · christopher nolan · alfred hitchcock · etc
Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things that I shouldn't know
When there's a new moon on the rise
I had everything, opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
TALK DIRTY TO ME
✌ SONS OF ANARCHY · parks and rec · happy endings · friends · the good wife · supernatural · prison break · true blood · band of brothers · psych · lie to me · pushing daisies · harper's island · how i met your mother · torchwood · sons of anarchy · breaking bad · dexter · the it crowd · the office · etc
Follow my blog with Bloglovin And I really miss what really did exist
When I held your throat so tight
And I miss the bus as it swerved from us
Almost came crashing to its side
Found an old diary today in my cupboards. There were only a few entries, from 2003 and 2005, but they were a nice thing to find. I've always thought I would never have the time to read through journal entries I made years ago, but I think occasionally, they would be really lovely for my future self to find. It would perhaps be better if I got a polaroid camera and took polaroids to stick into the journal. Personalize it, and etc. I've been going through quite a nostalgic week- going through all our old photo albums and realizing how happy we used to be, how great things were before. I should be writing this in pen in a journal instead of an online blog though. Chances are I'd read the book version more likely than I'd read the online one. There are just too many distractions online.
I've got couple of things I have to blog about like:
- how I've discovered from those journal entries that my younger self was really full of rage and immature and that this fucking bingeing had begin all the way back since that KK hospital shit.
- guitar is a tough son of a bitch to learn damnit. but it's incredibly rewarding if I actually put in time, and I do want to put in time, just I'm always awake when the sun sets and it gets too quiet at night to play. I'm awake in the early ams and I can't practice in the early ams because everyone else is sleeping
- signed up for motorcycle class 2b course, taking first theory tomorrow and I haven't even read up on the textbook
- no longer able to find interest for baking
- desperately want to be able to sew a fucking teddy bear, need to buy fake fur and stuff and learn to use the sewing machine
- would someday like to learn how to play the piano
- would definitely like to learn how to read sheet music
- would love to improve on badminton and cycling and start getting myself fit
- have been watching some jdramas yesterday and today. it's amazing how different the styles are, compared to american/british television. asian television is just... well. like for the jdramas i've watched so far, maybe they're in the comedy genre, but they're more of a light-ish tone? i don't know how to describe it. anyhow, it's probably that i chose comedies to watch instead of serious dramas, and the american tv i watch is more or less drama so-
- sherlock holmes 2 is coming out soon i can barely contain my excitement. it sucks to not have anyone to fangirl with. nobody i can relate too. all those folks are on tumblr and damnit i really fucking miss tumblr sometimes but i can't go back because it sucks out my life.
- jude and robert will be doing promotional interviews and i am so psyched for those
- damnit just damnit!!!
- also, karaoke-ed with gen again on monday. it was fun but really tiring after the first 4 hours.
- i think my jap singing had improved. obviously, i'm only capable of singing slow songs that i've listened to over 100 times.
- can't wait to ride a motorcycle
- need to cycle more regularly not just once a fucking week
- i have been saving the best for last----
SONS OF ANARCHY FINALE aklsjfaslkkfjskldjfsalfhaskl
I guess I am contented with how it ended. I cannot wait for season 5 and I will die in the process of waiting. I'll be like almost dead, but before my final breath I will be revived with the hopes that season 5 is just around the corner.. and slightly further.
DID I MENTION IT IS THE GREATEST SHOW EVER?????
OMG THOUGH. JAX. JAX HAS HAD SO MUCH TO FUCKING DEAL WITH. I AM SO HAPPY TARA IS STAYING WITH HIM. I AM AT A LOST FOR WORDS. THE EPISODE WAS GOOD THOUGH. i guess most fans, perhaps, would be upset with Clay still being alive, but I kinda guessed he would not die because come on, I feel like Clay is sort of still important to the club/show?? idk. I mean, it would be a little or more so, different if Clay was dead and besides Ron is an amazing actor. Besides...... despite everything Clay did, I never really hated him that much that I wanted him to die ): Am I the only one who still believes in Clay/doesn't hate him to death? The final scene though, where they were sitting in for church- compare that to the first season and I think you'd notice a big drop in the numbers of the members. Okay but seriously am glad that the stuff with Juice will be buried. I realized Potter is a pretty interesting character and that the only reason I had taken a disliking to him was for the agony he caused Juice.
This episode had really amazing and lovely Jax/Tara scenes though.
I wanted to scream when this happened. asjdgaklsdgf
Ugh another confession, I am definitely more of a Tara fan than a Gemma fan )':
ooh also, I have previously (years/months ago) thought I disliked 30 seconds to mars- their music, I mean. I admired Jared Leto for his brilliant acting roles. But recently, I have decided I was probably just sick that I could think that. Their music is amazing *_* I'm going to slowly get sucked into liking them and becoming a Jared Leto fangirl.
It sucks though, that even though I get psyched for Jude and RDJ, i don't obsess and think about them as much as I used to!! EWAN TOO ARGH.
Another thing I've realized.. I have no idea how to tell if someone is good looking or not. Though I guess, every celebrity is just goddamn beautiful. But still, if someone asked me what type of guys I would be attracted to, I don't think there is a definite answer. I mean, aaaargh. It kinda depends. The guys I happen to like are all actors because I watch a lot of tv and movies and I'm just drawn to their talents. I told myself guys around their late 30s to beyond would usually be the kind I'd be attracted to, but recently guys under in the 20-30 range have made me just quite giddy. IDK. But those are only a select few. Mostly, it's just guys twice my age and over. I don't like them too young. Ugh I sound like a *****. However, liking them and such, these celebrities, I mean, it ends with idolization and immense admiration. I would never want to or could never imagine myself having any kind of fantastical relationship with these people I have much respect for. I would never want to meet them (ok maybe KINDA but) I don't want to disappoint. LIKE TROY IN COMMUNITY? WITH HIS IDOL? YEAH. I'D BE STONE FACED AND UNABLE TO MOVE ANYTHING if ever I should meet anyone of them face to face. I'd just want to melt after telling them they're the most amazing person in the world that's all.
