WALKIN' ON SUNSHINE WOAAAH
LLLena { Same Shit Different Day } ☂ 
I'm a big fan of television, movies and music. AND HANDSOME GUYS DUH I love discovering new tv shows, new fandoms, new artists. NEW FAVORITES TO UH STALK? LUST OVER?? I'm trying to start reading and writing again.
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'm okay"
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'll try harder"
Don't be afraid to dream a little bigger darlin'
I SALSA UR FACE
✌ robert downey jr. · ewan mcgregor · jude law · johnny depp · colin farrell · jim carrey · tom hanks · wentworth miller · kevin spacey · george clooney · jeff bridges · jeremy renner · geoffrey rush · simon pegg · nick frost · colin firth · brad pitt · nicolas cage · leonardo dicaprio · sean penn · paul rudd · jason segel · clint eastwood · paul newman · marlon brando · matt damon · mark wahlberg · aaron paul · tim roth · etc
Secondly, don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want.
HE ATE A BANANA
✌ quentin tarantino · tim burton · martin scorsese · stanley kubrick · coen brothers · danny boyle · steven spielberg · edgar wright · robert rodriguez · roman polanski · sidney lumet · david fincher · christopher nolan · alfred hitchcock · etc
Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things that I shouldn't know
When there's a new moon on the rise
I had everything, opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
TALK DIRTY TO ME
✌ SONS OF ANARCHY · parks and rec · happy endings · friends · the good wife · supernatural · prison break · true blood · band of brothers · psych · lie to me · pushing daisies · harper's island · how i met your mother · torchwood · sons of anarchy · breaking bad · dexter · the it crowd · the office · etc
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And I really miss what really did exist
When I held your throat so tight
And I miss the bus as it swerved from us
Almost came crashing to its side
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updates:
-I hate everything.
-I missed the once in a lifetime opportunity to meet Tom Hanks when he was in Singapore this June
-I hate everything.
-Pre-menstrual is the worst phase that a woman can ever endure. Nothing even comes close to comparison.
-I hate living in this house. I don't hate that we have problems, I know every family has problems, even though they may seem so perfect. I just hate living in this house physically. I cannot change and overcome myself as long as I stay here. This is the one hundredth time I'm saying this, but it's true.
-I hate myself and my ability to give up at the slightest hint of what may seemingly be difficulty.
-I cannot persevere through hard times.
-Basically I am late with my period and I am fat and I cannot stop eating, I eat until the hour I sleep and when I wake up I think about food immediately and I am fat and I cannot even continue exercising for more than a week. I am fat, but I am lazy, and I don't do a thing about it. Also I didn't know Tom was in Singapore what the fuuuuck. I have been saying I would get a job since forever but I never have. Why is the stupid fucking psychologist so unavailable? Some help she can be to her patients if it's so fucking hard to get an appointment. I could be dead by the time I see her next. I know it's not her fault, but still, I am angry.
-I hate living in this house. Every time my mom starts yelling and shouting at my brother, out of habit, she doesn't realize it, but it's equally loud and hard to put up with, I want to kill myself. It never stops, and until I think I should just run out of the house, she does. Occasionally it comes up again. I just can't tolerate, or understand why she has expectations of my brother so high that she pretty much expects him to know everything in the world and answer all homework questions correctly and be a perfect model child with perfect everything perfect grades mostly. What she is looking for, is a robotic child. A fake child. A child that is man made, therefore perfect, to be modeled after a real life child.
-God has made us all so flawed. What have we all become?
-We human beings can never be content with our lives, no matter how perfect our lives may seem to others. We will forever have envy in our minds, and we will complain, and we will be jealous. Or is that only the Singaporean population? I don't know. I guess it is the flaws that make us human. Otherwise we would be puppets, just like the robotic child that doesn't exist. Still, all these flaws have led to fighting and crime and hatred and all the dark things. But who's to say these are wrong and right and there's so much to contemplate.
-My sister, for one, she's so fucking perfect. Literally, top of her class in almost all areas, almost top of the level kind of perfect. She has really genuine good friends, and she's really talented. She works very hard. She works very, very hard to achieve that level of perfectness, but she loves it because she gets rewarded with top results. And yet she cannot help compare with others who are taller than her how short she is. When, she is not short at all. The tall people are the freaks who aren't normal. But she is obsessed with growing taller. I wish she could see how blessed she is. What does it matter to be tall?
-To say that, someone else could ask me, what does it matter to be perfect? It matters because you are accepted by people and they look up to you. "So a human being has to be deemed perfect to be respected by their kind?" Of course, we should respect everyone all the same. No matter the factors or circumstances which have led you to where you are in your life, you are a human being and I am a human being and we should treat everyone as equals but that's not how it works.
-Anyway, I guess to some I may be blessed with a good family. Except I still complain. We all complain about the little things. It's so hard for us to appreciate. We always want better things. We always want to better ourselves. But that is not wrong. Because if we didn't want to better ourselves, the Earth would die because everyone would be complacent and they would accept anything and everything and give in to indifference- I think. So how are we to act?
-I feel guilty whenever I feel like I want to feel good about myself. Like I don't deserve to feel good about myself or to feel happy at all. Thus I am always moody.
-How are we to act? How are we to be ourselves? How are we to be anybody?
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