WALKIN' ON SUNSHINE WOAAAH
LLLena { Same Shit Different Day } ☂ 
I'm a big fan of television, movies and music. AND HANDSOME GUYS DUH I love discovering new tv shows, new fandoms, new artists. NEW FAVORITES TO UH STALK? LUST OVER?? I'm trying to start reading and writing again.
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'm okay"
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'll try harder"
Don't be afraid to dream a little bigger darlin'
I SALSA UR FACE
✌ robert downey jr. · ewan mcgregor · jude law · johnny depp · colin farrell · jim carrey · tom hanks · wentworth miller · kevin spacey · george clooney · jeff bridges · jeremy renner · geoffrey rush · simon pegg · nick frost · colin firth · brad pitt · nicolas cage · leonardo dicaprio · sean penn · paul rudd · jason segel · clint eastwood · paul newman · marlon brando · matt damon · mark wahlberg · aaron paul · tim roth · etc
Secondly, don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want.
HE ATE A BANANA
✌ quentin tarantino · tim burton · martin scorsese · stanley kubrick · coen brothers · danny boyle · steven spielberg · edgar wright · robert rodriguez · roman polanski · sidney lumet · david fincher · christopher nolan · alfred hitchcock · etc
Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things that I shouldn't know
When there's a new moon on the rise
I had everything, opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
TALK DIRTY TO ME
✌ SONS OF ANARCHY · parks and rec · happy endings · friends · the good wife · supernatural · prison break · true blood · band of brothers · psych · lie to me · pushing daisies · harper's island · how i met your mother · torchwood · sons of anarchy · breaking bad · dexter · the it crowd · the office · etc
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And I really miss what really did exist
When I held your throat so tight
And I miss the bus as it swerved from us
Almost came crashing to its side
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"If I jump, will I survive?"
Sorry, I haven't been busy. I've just been wasting around, and making some crafts. Yeah, not much, and I only did them like yesterday because I was bored and my hands just needed to do something.
Yeah, I like paper cranes a lot..
Maybe I'll fold a hundred then take a picture. Now there's just nothing to show..
And then I drew this, following the pictures from this drawing book I bought too long ago and did not touch. I just changed the expression of the baby because babies aren't innocent. They are sadists.
OKAY so where is proportion and etc etc different sized feet, I know. ): I-I don't care anymore ;A;
Short post because I should really sleep now after I wash up. Too lazy to color the baby.
Quote of the day?week? from Psych season 5 episode 1 Romeo and Juliet. YEEEESSS Psych season 5 is hereeee. \o/ I miss the series so much. Shall blog more about being psyched for Psych and other stuff later.
Just remember when the healing ends and the delaying begins.
Yeah, not a funny one, but I feel really applies to me.
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"You are the best liar I've ever met."
WHY AM I ALWAYS GETTING “THE CONNECTION WAS INTERRUPTED” WITH BLOGGER AND GMAIL? I’M SO SICK OF THIS SHIT. I KEEP REFRESHING- IT USED TO WORK- BUT IT DOESN’T ANYMORE.
I don’t care anymore. About anything. The past week, I have felt so detached from myself, and even the things that could get me motivated in the past no longer work. I know I still have hope/chances/opportunities/whatever since I’m alive, and I’m young, although getting old. I’ve wasted so much precious time and resources though. I know I should pick myself up, because come on, there are people with problems, and there are people with problems. And everyone has their own share of problems. Mine? Mine are pathetic and silly and I’m a giant idiot. I’m like a balloon that keeps getting idiot pumped into it. It’s so funny, my life, my regrets, my mistakes. But you know what? I don’t care anymore.
I can’t bring myself to care. I always get so emotional and I can’t control myself, can’t stop me from being a wreck when I hear upsetting things or encounter upsetting things. Pretty much just weak, weak, weak..
Yeah, I know, there are people with difficulties and there’s me. I don’t have cancer, I don’t have any physical disabilities, I am perfectly healthy- so to speak. But I am weaker than a person who knows he/she has only 24 hours left to live. I take life and things for granted, so none of it matters. I don’t want responsibilities, I don’t want to admit to my mistakes..
I read before that we humans- the majority of us- tend to regret things that we did not do, rather than things that we do. I think that’s because if we were to regret the things that WE DID, it would be like admitting to our mistakes. It would be saying, “Yes, I brought this upon myself” AND REALLY BELIEVING IT. But if we were to regret the things we DID NOT do, we were just pushing the “blame” around. Trying to find excuses for our mistakes.
“Oh I wish I had taken the earlier train!”
“Oh if only I said yes”
“Gosh, I should have washed my underwear!!!”
“Bloody hell, I should not have made that promise”
Blah blah, we don’t want to accept our faults, we want to look in other areas and run away from the truth. Everyone wants to turn back the clock to a point in time of their life. To redo things, because then HOPEFULLY we would get different results.
We refuse to accept the present, we look back and mourn the past, we fantasize or weep about the future. We never focus on the one minute that is the present. The one second. It passes so quickly, because the next thing you know, that one second is history. And if you made a mistake in that one second because you were thinking about the future, then it’s too late because you cannot go back and undo it.
Fuck.
Not going to blog about what happened today. It’s the same old, same old. Same shit, different day.
Yeah, but for memory’s sake.. well I woke up at 9am specifically to book my yoga class. I went back to sleep. I woke at 12.30pm again to prepare and get ready. I prepared, but then spent an hour doing miscellaneous things. Then I went to bathe, and changed, and before I could leave the house, I cancelled my goddamn class. It was a late cancellation, which meant a red mark or something. Twice of this same shit and I will be banned from online booking. No show in one month and I will be banned from I don’t fucking know what. Yes, they are trying to run a business. But hello? Why have the cancellation function at all then.. Because of that stupid fucking button, I have abused it and made myself slave to my goddamn habits/weak discipline/i don’t know what. I cancelled every class I booked in the last 10 days. Is it funny? It almost is.
I am pretty sure the staff over there thinks I have split personalities or some mental problem by now. Maybe I do, maybe I’m just thinking I do, so I don’t have to admit that I am a LAZY ass.
Still, every minute from the time I got up to the time I was about to leave the house, I could not keep out the war that was going on in my head.
“NO DON’T GOOOOOOOOOO”
“GO GO GO GO JUST DO IT DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT”
“BUT WHAT IF YOU SCREW UUUUUUUUUUP”
“OKAY LOL I THINK I BETTER STAY AT HOME LMAOOOO”
Hah and that about sums it up. Of course, I couldn’t tell my mom. I tried to in the end, but yeah, as predicted, she doesn’t understand. I know I am fucking lazy okay? I know I made you pay for it and I didn’t go and I’m such a disappointment and I should just diaf. Whatever. Stop rubbing it in. I’m sad. Yeah.
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