I'm a big fan of television, movies and music. AND HANDSOME GUYS DUH I love discovering new tv shows, new fandoms, new artists. NEW FAVORITES TO UH STALK? LUST OVER?? I'm trying to start reading and writing again.
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'm okay"
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'll try harder" Don't be afraid to dream a little bigger darlin'
I SALSA UR FACE
✌ robert downey jr. · ewan mcgregor · jude law · johnny depp · colin farrell · jim carrey · tom hanks · wentworth miller · kevin spacey · george clooney · jeff bridges · jeremy renner · geoffrey rush · simon pegg · nick frost · colin firth · brad pitt · nicolas cage · leonardo dicaprio · sean penn · paul rudd · jason segel · clint eastwood · paul newman · marlon brando · matt damon · mark wahlberg · aaron paul · tim roth · etc
Secondly, don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want.
HE ATE A BANANA
✌ quentin tarantino · tim burton · martin scorsese · stanley kubrick · coen brothers · danny boyle · steven spielberg · edgar wright · robert rodriguez · roman polanski · sidney lumet · david fincher · christopher nolan · alfred hitchcock · etc
Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things that I shouldn't know
When there's a new moon on the rise
I had everything, opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
TALK DIRTY TO ME
✌ SONS OF ANARCHY · parks and rec · happy endings · friends · the good wife · supernatural · prison break · true blood · band of brothers · psych · lie to me · pushing daisies · harper's island · how i met your mother · torchwood · sons of anarchy · breaking bad · dexter · the it crowd · the office · etc
Follow my blog with Bloglovin And I really miss what really did exist
When I held your throat so tight
And I miss the bus as it swerved from us
Almost came crashing to its side
I FEEL SO FUCKING TERRIBLE. I FEEL LIKE SHIT. I NEED TO EXERCISE. IT'S BEEN 3-4 DAYS OF SITTING AT HOME CONTINUOUSLY WITHOUT GOING OUT I AM DYING I HATE THIS. I NEED TO EITHER GO FOR A WALK OR CYCLE BUT DAD CAN'T CYCLE TODAY AND I SHOULD GO ALONE, I CAN, BUT I AM AFRAID HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO GO ALONE
WHEN THE FUCK HELL AM I GOING TO STOP LETTING WHAT I THINK OTHER PEOPLE WILL THINK DICTATE MY LIFE? I AM SO PISSED OFF. I AM SO LETHARGIC. I AM SO RESTLESS. I AM DYING.
I HATE HATE HATE EVERYTHING. MANDY AND EVERYONE ELSE WENT SWIMMING TODAY AND THEY WENT OUT THE WHOLE DAY I AM THE ONLY STUPID FUCKING PIG THAT SLEEPS IN UNTIL 5 FUCKING PM AND THEN SPENDS THE ENTIRE FUCKING NIGHT AND TIME I AM AWAKE EATING LIKE FUCK KNOWS HOW MUCH AND SITTING DOWN ON MY 500000000000000000KG ASSSSS
I take back my comments on Homeland. It is perfect and I want it to continue on. I very much want it to. Damian Lewis is amazing. The show is amazing and it's actually caused me a lot of distress and pain while I'm watching it. UGH i don't know how the season finale will happen. sdhfkajffshkgsd also Carrie was a character that I started out not liking very much but I've come to love her a lot. I am actually angry at what's happened to her character. And I mean, them treating her like she's lost her mind, she's not stable etc and going into her house and taking down all her work?
anyhow everything else has been shit lately. I have been bingeing excessively on chocolates over the last few days. chocolates and sugar coated cereals and tons of fucking bread and so much fucking food!!!!! i need to return to eating healthily and in control. CONTROL man, fuck.
also, I've seem to lost motivation with my guitar practice. what is going wrong with me?
it's happened since I went for that night cycling thing. i mean, it was great and i really enjoyed myself despite the eventual rain that got us drenched. i was so excited last week, kinda high-ish on actually having events planned
i think my greatest weakness is being unable to accept changes. i have to have the same routine or schedule everyday otherwise i'll go crazy. not crazy but like out of control. actually that day wasn't much of a change in routine because the cycling was in the am and i am always awake in the am. i think i'll be a fat fucking useless bum forever because every little bit of exercise i do, my body seems to want to fucking compensate with bunch of high calorie foods. why? why?
and i missed the test mom scheduled for me today, monday. i think i was upset too that i didn't follow my plans. i binged out of control the night before and then i couldn't get out of the house on monday morning. worse still, i made plans to practice guitar and cycle on monday, if i weren't gonna go out for the tests and i didn't follow through those either! i slept way too much, and i've eaten way more. how the fucking hell do i get control back? why am i always losing it? i'm always accidentally unknowingly slipping into these crazy ass binge cycles and ruining everything. i'll never lose a pound again.
which i should be okay with. as long as i get my life back which i'm so far away from achieving.
watching carrie in episode 11 of homeland, and her have her manic episodes was crazy. i guess i don't have bipolar after all. not type i or ii. i don't think i have manic episodes. only possibly very minor ones when i don't sleep and i forget my medicine or like previously, i accidentally overdosed the medicine.
i feel like the meds are making me tired all the time. it started out okay. but the longer i have been taking it, it seems it's making me tired all the time! like how do i explain this to the dr and have her understand what i mean.
i don't think i could do without the meds though. i think they'd make my binges crazy. and if i stopped taking the meds suddenly, i wouldn't be able to sleep. they've been giving me deep sleep for as long as i've taken them. seriously. and dreams. i'm afraid if i stop them, i can't sleep normally anymore. meds fuck the natural order up
aaaaaand homeland gets me all hysteric lajkfdhjklsshsfaskl what's gonna happen. omg brody why you do this
been reading gantz manga too. it's exciting. i like it i guess. read a couple of chapters of mpd psycho yesterday, but i don't think i'm continuing anymore because it's confusing to read. i don't really know if it's the translation issue or just the way the plot and storyline is structured but i don't really know what's happening, with the characters and such.
can't wait to watch the gantz live action starring nino though. ugh gdm he's adorable. i swore never to like guys so young okay. i used to like like matsujun and mizushima hiro i think. and possible kame as well. then i think my tastes have changed.
anyway, i'm using this for my phone wallpaper right now. it's giving me weird (but good) feelings every time i look at it
also it seems like i am unable to love any other jrock band as much as i do the gazette
seriously, idek why
it's hard to fall in love with songs lately. maybe it's just i don't listen or watch enough videos
no but seriously i don't listen to enough stuff.
i don't even know like 99.999% of the bands around.
mandy's been watching fairy tail and loving it. i'm kinda happy she likes anime. mom isn't though. feels like it's a bad influence hah. i used to love anime so fucking much. then i started on manga, then tv shows, then movies, then tv shows again. and after years, i've started watching jdramas again and reading manga. but still uk/us tv shows > jdramas for me. and anime- well i think i've grown out of it now.
other than the obvious, i would like to highlight that i am so attracted to his hair color especially? i mean idk, idk why it's taken me this long to find it in my heart to like this guy, but i just wanted to comment and say that i really love his hair >_>
saw this at city hall mrt station, and because of my excitement both for the movie and the cast... I snapped a photo
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also I've been strangely and unexpectedly watching a couple of jdrama and japanese variety shows with the arashi members. why are they so entertaining and lovely to watch? ><
and and finally started on homeland! ugh it's fantastic.
i kind of like and don't like the idea of there being a season 2 though. that just means the answers to any questions viewers may have like is brody a terrorist (although it really seems more complicated than that) won't be answered until like.. forever?? Depending on how many seasons it gets. I just don't want t a good show to be ruined because they dragged it longer than it should have. I don't know! I kind of have started liking miniseries lately so that's probably why. Except for shows like Sons of Anarchy, I plead that it please carry on forever until forever PLEASE. never fucking end ;A;
