WALKIN' ON SUNSHINE WOAAAH
LLLena { Same Shit Different Day } ☂ 
I'm a big fan of television, movies and music. AND HANDSOME GUYS DUH I love discovering new tv shows, new fandoms, new artists. NEW FAVORITES TO UH STALK? LUST OVER?? I'm trying to start reading and writing again.
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'm okay"
"I'm not as good as I used to be, but I'll try harder"
Don't be afraid to dream a little bigger darlin'
I SALSA UR FACE
✌ robert downey jr. · ewan mcgregor · jude law · johnny depp · colin farrell · jim carrey · tom hanks · wentworth miller · kevin spacey · george clooney · jeff bridges · jeremy renner · geoffrey rush · simon pegg · nick frost · colin firth · brad pitt · nicolas cage · leonardo dicaprio · sean penn · paul rudd · jason segel · clint eastwood · paul newman · marlon brando · matt damon · mark wahlberg · aaron paul · tim roth · etc
Secondly, don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want.
HE ATE A BANANA
✌ quentin tarantino · tim burton · martin scorsese · stanley kubrick · coen brothers · danny boyle · steven spielberg · edgar wright · robert rodriguez · roman polanski · sidney lumet · david fincher · christopher nolan · alfred hitchcock · etc
Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things that I shouldn't know
When there's a new moon on the rise
I had everything, opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
TALK DIRTY TO ME
✌ SONS OF ANARCHY · parks and rec · happy endings · friends · the good wife · supernatural · prison break · true blood · band of brothers · psych · lie to me · pushing daisies · harper's island · how i met your mother · torchwood · sons of anarchy · breaking bad · dexter · the it crowd · the office · etc
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And I really miss what really did exist
When I held your throat so tight
And I miss the bus as it swerved from us
Almost came crashing to its side
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"Light my tears on fire"
Strawberries! These are so adorably shaped.
Bagels of all kinds. I want them all.
Dear future self, please read this on Sunday, the 12th of September, when your period has ended.
The good and bad feelings will come and go. The good and bad days will come and go. Today has been incredibly shitty, but all the more you need to get out of the house. You don't treat yourself well. You don't even care. You munch and munch and stuff yourself with food all day, everyday. Your stomach cannot take it, but you don't care. You don't care that you're going to sleep in one hour, and it's 3am and you're still eating and eating. You don't care that you've already eaten a week's worth of food in one afternoon- you're still eating.
Think about it, do you want to be referred to as "the fat sister"? Yesterday, you looked in the mirror, and you were very shocked by the image of yourself. For once, since early primary school years, you're obese again. You never thought it would come to this, did you? It's a wake up call. You've always said you wouldn't let yourself go to become this big, but now you have.
Let's put that aside for now. Yesterday, there were some few minutes in the evening when you felt like you really wanted to get out of this. You said, when your period ended, you would get out and look for a job. You are obese, but you still need to get your life back. Stop thinking that you need to lose weight first before getting a job/taking a course/letting yourself out in public because that is so not going to happen without you stepping out of the house first.
I know you want to ignore this for as long as possible and do the same shit every day but you should know that this is not the way. Inside there's still a part of you that wants things to go back to normal, no matter how difficult it is.
If you think about it, in the past, you gave up too easily. In the past, when you had lesser problems and lesser things to worry about, and when it'd only been lesser few months since you left the house, you decided to give up already. Look what good that did you. Now, you're far worse than you've ever, ever been, in all aspects of life. Think about what would be of you next year if you continue to let this be. You would be 100% disabled, dangerously obese and unable to even move anything.
You keep thinking, oh no way, it wouldn't come to that. No way, you still had time to fuck around but truth is you've already wasted your entire youth fucking around. Everyone you grew up with will be taking their A levels this year, or graduating from polytechnic the next year. You're incredibly jealous but what's that going to do.
Anyway, just remember, just get a job. Get a job, and try to go back to the yoga for fuck's sake. It's been months since you last went. Your mom is paying for that shit.
Lena
PS. Limit internet usage to only max 2 hours per day. Right now you're using it 16 hours per day what the fucking hell.
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